The Escape To EverywhereBy Paul Hedderman
Consciousness is going through the doors of the senses and meeting itself here. The mental process then claims it: I am the one seeing, doing, etc. It’s my body. If your attention left the mental process, if you weren’t so addicted to the idea of being a self, if your attention could entertain, “Possibly I’m not this that I’m so absorbed in” and you would see there is no need to get out of self because there was never a self to be in.
Sensations of the body are hijacked by the mental process which spins out a story of feelings about you. About what was you and what is going to be you. Then the thoughts reinforce that. Obsessing over self all day. We are saddled with the proscribed way of looking called self-centeredness. Everything is perceived as to how it pertains to me. The thing to do is to turn the light on it to see that all there is, is subject; there is no object called me as a subject. There’s just subjectivity. That’s the truth. Then enlightenment and all these goals become non-goals, because you realize there is nothing to seek.
You already know what the game is like when you’re identified as the body. Now you might see how it goes when you’re not. The narration about the journey is the heaviness. You’ll see the solution by the problem’s absence. When that narration is dismissed you realize, “That’s what I was suffering from!”
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